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| i havent written in this thing for almost a year now.
a lot has happened. but if i got nothing good to say, then id rather not say anything.
anyway...this weekend has been GOOD. its been very healthy. Friday night, i went to have dinner wiht my friends and went for a 2 hour massage and went to sleep at 1am!!!. Woke up butt early on Saturday morning, made it to Nelson and Benson's bday party on the boat. HUGE boat with lots of food. I actually went on the banana float ride thing...so much fun even tho we sucked and fell in the water way too many times. haha. the ride out to the sea is awesome..so relaxing. then jumped off the top deck and swam a bit. went with them to wakeboard...i was so tired i actually napped on the speed boat for like 45 mins and got sun burnt..hahaha. We were out in the sea for a good 9 hours!! geezz...i think i still feel like im wobbling from being on the boat too long. lol. then went to have korean bbq. then chilled at our friends pad and played different kinds of board games till 3am. hahaha.
i havent had this much fun in years. i dont know wat i was doing chasing a nightmare over the past 2 years. i'm glad ive woken up from it....and life is going to be much better from now on. thank god.
i wanna thank my good friends who have stuck by me through these rough times. thank you for those who have been supportive even tho we all know that i was stupid in sticking with a man that was no good at all. hey, its always good to have hopes...but thanks for always remindng me to snap out of it. thanks, especially the ones who have called me up just to check on me....no worries...i'm ok, better than ever and lovin it. =)
sooo exhausted...tonights sleep would be soooooo goood. i'm definately sleeping in tomorrow. =) good night. | | |
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Get to know yourself better
Your view on yourself: You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.
The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for: You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.
Your readiness to commit to a relationship: You prefer to get to know a person very well before deciding whether you will commit to the relationship.
The seriousness of your love: Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.
Your views on education Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.
The right job for you: You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.
How do you view success: You are afraid of failure and scared to have a go at the career you would like to have in case you don't succeed. Don't give up when you haven't yet even started! Be courageous.
What are you most afraid of: You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.
Who is your true self: You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.
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| I have been deceived. What a fool I have been. I fell in love with a lie u created. Trying to cover up a lie with more lies. All the damage you had done to our relationship you can never mend. Every time I take a step back, you hurt yourself to keep me...so I can stay for your petty lil games. You say those promising words, but there is no action. Were you trying to test my patience? Don't ask me to give you another chance...I gave you a chance every single day...425 chances to be exact...but you took it for granted. Never learning how to seize the moment, you thought my love for you would last without effort on your part. At least I know I was true. Maybe you're the fool. Now we all know what the answer is, the only right decision is to break away.
Despite what ever happened between us. I do wish you the best in your career. I still believe your hard work will pay off one day. I'll still support you, only behind the scenes, but too bad I won't be there to see it when u get there. Good Luck with all your future endeavors. Love. 
"Almost made you love me. Almost made you cry. Almost made you happy, didn't I didn't I? But everybody knows, "Almost" doesn't count...You can't get to heaven, half way off the ground...Every time you build me up, you only let me down...everybody knows..."Almost", doesn't count. I can't keep on loving you one foot outside the door. I feel a funny hesitation of a heart thats never really sure. I can't keep on hoping if you're looking for more." | | |
| OK...so cheryl just texted me some GOOD NEWS!! i have to tell the world!!!!! Britney Spears just had her baby boy today. Im so happy right now. What joy!!! 
I love her so much!!! I miss you Britney, I have been so Britney deprived over here in HK. 
http://news.yahoo.com/news?tmpl=story&u=/eo/20050915/en_celeb_eo/17362
BRITNEY YOUR MY ONE TRUE LOVE!! CONGRATULATIONS!!! 
But I must say...Federline looks like a dirty prick. Please kick him to da curb!!
 (I couldnt log on to any sites cuz im at work, all my pics are saved up on my laptop. But this is one of my FAVORITE pics of you...  )
On a Side Note: Life is good. Mom is good. Work is good. Ben got me a fruit platter yesterday...mm mm good. (Thanks for making my life a lil bit brighter  )
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DAYAM cheryl, ur quick! I just input my entry 5 mins ago..wat do u do...sit at home all day and click refresh on my xanga??? hahahhaa.
and GASP! NUH UH, YOU DID NOT JUST SPELL WHAT I THINK U DID!! you bastard!
Pple, pls disregard anything that cheryl ever writes on my xanga. My friend here has got some issues and needs help, thats why she goes to BOOT CAMP..puhaahahha!! | | |
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